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Hope floats

2007-04-07T12:49:00.000+08:00

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

50 Beauty Resolutions

2007-04-07T12:33:00.000+08:00

1. I will keep all my makeup sponges clean and crud-free. After all, sponges are for putting on makeup, not mud.
2. I will keep my eyebrows groomed. Stubble is sexy on Italian men, not my brow bone.
3. I will use conditioner on my hair.
4. I will use pore strips to keep my nose whitehead-free.
5. I will get a pedicure regularly. I don’t want to look like a troll.
6. I will trim my nose hairs. Enough said.
7. I will not prick my zits. This will eventually cause scars.
8. I will throw out my old makeup. If it smells like rotten fruit, it goes into the trash.
9. I will not put makeup on while driving. It will cause uneven makeup application and possible automobile accidents.
10. I will not use face powder that is too white for my face. I am not a Japanese Kabuki actor.
11. I will have my bigote removed (In case I even come out on TV in full close up.)
12. I will get a hot oil when I need one. It’s good for the hair, it’s good for the soul.
13. I will wash and clean my hair brushes.
14. I will get a haircut every 4 to 5 weeks. I don’t want to look like an overgrown fern.
15. I will exfoliate! I do not want to be a scaly reptile.
16. I will not smoke and put on hair spray at the same time. Hair spray is so eighties, really.
17. I will put on moisturizer every night.
18. I will use sunblock even when I’m not at the beach. Rays today, raisins tomorrow.
19. I will not stop using that chocolate brown/mauve/coral lipstick from the mid-nineties.
20. I will not match my eyeshadow with my clothes.
21. I will stop wearing pink foundation. Caladryl is for itches, not for the face.
22. I will start experimenting with new makeup styles.
23. I will keep my makeup kit neat and organized.
24. I will experiment with nail colors other than beige.
25. I will shave or wax my legs when I wear a skirt or shorts.
26. I will get a bikini wax if I have to wear a bikini or swimsuit.
27. I will not straighten/curl/dye my hair every month. Stressed hair is ugly hair.
28. I will use eye cream.
29. I will immediately remove chipped nail polish.
30. I will not sleep with makeup on. Just think of the pillows and bed sheets the morning after.
31. I will exfoliate my lips and use lip balm regularly.
32. I will keep hand sanitizer handy all the time.
33. I will always have a pack of tissues with me.
34. I will stop buying the same shade of lipstick.
35. I will not wear orange eyeshadow.
36. I will buy a new bath lily or loofah when the old one looks like a dead rat.
37. I will go to the spa at least once before I’m 50.
38. I will have my teeth cleaned every six months.
39. I will clean my makeup brushes every two weeks and replace them when they fall apart.
40. I will moisturize my elbows.
41. I will stop wearing tri-color eye shadow.
42. I will exfoliate and moisturize my feet.
43. I will not wear too-thick makeup.
44. I will clean my ears at least four times a week.
45. I will consult a recent magazine to see if my makeup/hairstyle/clothes are still current.
46. I will not feel insecure because I do not look like Laetitia Casta.
47. I will not make lait the next girl because she looks better than me.
48. I will be beautiful to feel good for myself, not to please other people.
49. I will not put mashed fruits and masticated vegetables on my face.
50. I will learn to laugh at myself when I get too vain.

...really helpful tips :)

I'm Back!

2007-04-07T12:26:00.000+08:00

Its been ages ago since I last posted something here in my blog. I’ve actually wanted to do so for but time wouldn’t really allow me. Here’s whats been happening to me lately:

• Still so much in love ;)
• Been here with Good Food for almost 3mos now. Tough job! But I’m enjoying it except for the site
• Missing my family and friends back home…and most of all, missing him so much!
• AFBB and WWTP geek! Add to that the mass and energy balance I’ve been working on. Argghhh…
• Super pressured for the FM presentation on Friday!
• Canteen attack! Eating in Mcdo would already bring out a super big smile from me
• Camiguin trip is just2 weeks away! Yey! Cant wait!
• Sun signal here in CDO sucks!
• I feel trapped literally here. Feels like I’ve been here forever…oh well, 14 weeks to go…

I Can Dream About You

2006-10-31T15:06:00.000+08:00

I'm so loving this song! ;) Ill be dreaming about you!

I Can Dream About You
Dan Hartman

No more timing each tear that falls from my eyes

I'm not hiding the remedy to cure this old heart of mine

CHORUS:

I can dream about you

If I can't hold you tonight

I can dream about you

You know how to hold me just right

REPEAT CHORUS

Moving sidewalks, I don't see under my feet

Climbing up from down here below where the streets see me lonely for you.

CHORUS

I can dream about you

I'm gonna press my lips against you and hold you tight to me

I can dream about you

You know you got me spellbound what else can it be

Moving sidewalks, I don't see under my feet

Climbing up from the pain in my heart 'cause it's you that I need.

I don't understand it

I can't keep my mind off loving you

Ooo, now baby, I'm caught up in the magic I see in you

There's one thing to do

I'm in!

2006-10-26T14:01:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad I got in. As they say, good things come to those who wait.

Blessings have really been coming my way. I got more than I expected since some monkey got off my hook! Let the happy times begin! =)

32 flavors and then some

2006-10-25T13:36:00.000+08:00

FUMING MAD - MB is so desperate by distorting the story. Tsk tsk.
SHAME - I pity both of them. Period.
THANKFUL - After 4 years, I know theyre going to make it through
GEEKY - been deriving Van der Waals to complete the oxygen thermo tables
CHEERS - to my friend for her new job!
SORE - arduous workout by my personal trainer. Argghhh!
THRILLED - cant wait to bond with my cousins soon!
UPSET - eye irritation thingy. Glasses for 2 weeks
HOPEFUL - been waiting for the outcome. Im keeping my fingers crossed.
GLOOMY - a close friend of mine is about to leave for Sgp
RELIEVED - finally met up with Ive for the kwentuhan session
ELATED - We ve been doing so well! Thanks to YOU! Im so lucky!

A lot like it

2006-10-18T13:29:00.000+08:00

Why I believe this is a lot like it:

Im convinced this is His plan for me
Im contented just having him - be it here or there!
Im super giddy just thinking of him
Im more than willing to make this work
I havent felt this secured and at peace before
I can be myself and be accepted for it
I cant wait to be with him again
He won me over =)
We can grow together even if we re not always together
We re both matured individual who knows what we want
We can resist temptations - nuff said!
We re crushed by each other ;)
We are a match

These are just some of the reasons why Im so certain about him - and US

Placid

2006-10-12T14:28:00.000+08:00

Finally worked on my dance class schedule which I think will take up most of my time. Promise, no step up here! =)
Bargained Chem thermo class to be on Mondays only. Yey! More time for FF!
Convinced or is it influenced Dyoy for FF. Either way, Im happy were together. More bonding moments!
Adding more and more people on the need-to-know list. Cant wait to tell everyone na nga eh! =p
Became aware that really good-hearted people have the right perception. What a relief!
Mantra: Im alone but Im not lonely. Definitely not lonely, pwede pa giddy! ;)
Daisypath says: 2 months and 6 days to go =)

Busy eh?!?

2006-10-09T10:42:00.000+08:00

I started with my countdown last Saturday and part of it is to have a busy schedule to keep me sane while waiting. Heres a list of what Ill be looking forward to this coming weeks.

MS sked Mondays, Wednesdays and Saturdays. Saturday nights wont be the same anymore =(
Dance classes schedule still to be finalized.
Dinner and movie with Dyoy this Tuesday or Thursday?!?
Catching up session with Ive this Friday night.
Mommys birthday next Wednesday.
Ratskees sleepover at Almays next Friday.

I guess these should be fine for now... and for as long as HE keeps me sane, Ill be alright :)

*** Dyoys birthday last Saturday night was such a blast! Good food, nice music and great company! You got it all at 99! ;) Happy birthday beh!

Rain Rain Rain

2006-10-02T10:39:00.000+08:00

Reasons why I hate the rain:

- rain always has a melancholic effect on me
- rain means getting my feet wet! arrghhh...
- rain means long hours of traffic
- rain means having cold feet, literally, in the shuttle

Reasons why I came to love the rain:

- rain means PO at work! office area at rechall?!? 'nuff said...
- rain means being stranded - dream come true!=p
- rain means adventure on a foggy night
- rain means cuddling ;)
- rain means being with someone REALLY special ;)

I guess i can start loving the rain now...=)

Happy Thoughts

2006-09-25T10:52:00.000+08:00

- I havent been this giddy in such a long time. I'm smiling like crazy... Doesnt matter what we're doing...just as long as we're together =p I guess I've just been "crushed" ;)

- Step Up is such a nice movie! Great dancing moves! oh, im so missing absinth ;p

- Cant wait to start dance classes! Just need to fix my masters sked before i hit the dance floor!

- Kenny Rogers mac-and-cheese have never tasted sooo good! ;)

- Power napping just gets better and better =p and oh, its just sooo nice that i have the remote =p

- Last few days...bilisan mo to get back ha? =) I'll be waiting... =p

Super Giddy! =)

2006-09-20T10:57:00.000+08:00

giddy...this word perfectly describes what I'm feeling right now. I wasnt expecting this but I'm so blessed it actually happened. I believe I'll be smiling my whole life through...=)

Hahahaha!

2006-09-18T10:14:00.000+08:00

Ugly Girl

by Fleming and John

When I saw you at the grocery store

you were sharing a shopping cart with her

and I couldn't turn and run away

I didn't know what to say

You introduced us for the first time

and I had to look her in the eye

but you could not imagine my surprise

can't you seeyou're leaving me

for an ugly girl

Does she talk about politics

and all the stuff that used to make me sick

does she smoke cigars and stay up late?

oh she's so great

Does she tell you what you want to hear

and I bet that she can grow a beard I'd feel better thinking you were queer

it's not fair

I can't compare

to an ugly girl

ha ha ha

ha ha the jokes on me

I feel jealous and I feel mean

is she so nice that it makes up for her face

there's no way

Do you have to keep your eyes closed

do you have to keep the lights down low

oh I bet you wish you had a blindfold

can't you see

you're leaving me

for an ugly girl

What I Believe

2006-09-12T10:44:00.000+08:00

Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.

We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.

You can't stop loving or wanting to love because when its right, it's the best thing in the world. When you're in a relationship and it's good, even if nothing else in your life is right, you feel like your whole world is complete.

There is no feeling more comforting and consoling than knowing you are right next to the one you love.

When we're incomplete, we're always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we're still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on--series polygamy--until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.

Well, it seems to me that the best relationships - the ones that last - are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is... suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.

The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story. It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender; because this kiss already has within it that surrender.

Nobody can hurt me without my permission.

A loving relationship is one in which the loved one is free to be himself -- to laugh with me, but never at me; to cry with me, but never because of me; to love life, to love himself, to love being loved. Such a relationship is based upon freedom and can never grow in a jealous heart.

It is essential that our love be liberating,not possessive. We must at all times give those we love the freedom to be themselves.Love affirms the other as other. It does not possess and manipulate another as mine. . . .To love is to liberate. Love and friendship must empower those we love to become their best selves, according to their own lights and visions.

All about Relationships

2006-09-05T14:32:00.000+08:00

Just got this from a friend. Some I agree with, others uhmmm, ok. =)
enjoy reading!

The six BIGGEST mistakes we make in the beginning of a relationship:
1. We don't ask enough questions.
2. We ignore warning signs of potential problems.
3. We make premature compromises.
4. We give in to lust blindness.
5. We give in to material seduction.
6. We put commitment before compatibility.

Seven Wrong Reasons to be in a Relationship:
1. Pressure (age, family, friends, etc.)
2. Loneliness and desperation
3. Sexual hunger
4. Distraction from your own life
5. To avoid growing up
6. Guilt
7. To fill up your emotional or spiritual emptiness

The Lust into Love Formula
1. First, you feel powerful sexual chemistry with someone or, in raw terms, lust.
2. Next, you act on those urges and have sex with that person.
3. Then you experience some guilt or discomfort having been so sexually intimate with someone you aren't that emotionally connected with.
4. Finally you create a relationship with that person to legitimize your lust.

Five Realities about Love
1. Love is not enough to make a relationship work - it needs compatibility and commitment.
2. It just takes a moment to experience infatuation, but true love takes time.
3. It is possible to experience true love with more than one person there are many potential partners you couldbe happy with.
4. The right partner will fulfill many of your needs but not all of them.
5. Good sex has nothing to do with true love, but making love does.

Five Deadly Myths about Love
1. True love conquers all.
2. When it's really true love, you will know it the moment you meet the other person.
3. There is only one true love in the world that is right for you.
4. The perfect partner will fulfill you completely in every way.
5. When you experience powerful sexual chemistry with someone, it must be love.

Fatal flaws to watch out for in a partner:
1. Addictions.
2. Anger.
3. Victim consciousness.
4. Control freak
5. Sexual Dysfunction.
6. Hasn't grown up.
7. Emotionally unavailable.
8. Hasn't recovered from past relationships.
9. Emotional damage from childhood.

Here are seven compatibility time bombs that can destroy a relationship:
1. Significant age difference.
2. Different religious background.
3. Different social, ethnic, or educational background.
4. Toxic in-laws.
5. Toxic ex-spouse.
6. Toxic Stepchildren.
7. Long-distance relationships.

Six qualities to look for in a mate:
1. Commitment to personal growth.
2. Emotional openness
3. Integrity
4. Maturity and responsibility
5. High self-esteem
6. Positive Attitude towards life

" Treat every relationship as if it's the last one, then you'll know how to give....
Treat every moment as is it's the last day,then you'll know how to treasure..."

Ratskees Sunday Lunch

2006-08-23T07:47:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday, Ratskees girls met for the usual kwentuhan sessions but with unusual topics. From the latest detailed scoop of each other’s lives to the mysteries of our future. I super miss living with these girls in one house. Sharing our everydays made our college lives so much easier. What would I give to have these girls around everyday? Ok lng to have maggots, mickeys and flying insects =) Luv yah girls!

Quotable Quotes

2006-08-22T07:00:00.000+08:00

Beautiful lives dont just happen. They are made, every single day, with much love, prayer and sacrifice. The many tasks we face each day can burden and oppress, but spending time with God each day can bring relief from stress. Let us be reminded that in the end, only 3 things really matters: how fully you lived, how deeply you loved, and how gracefully you let go of the things that are not meant for you...

Thanks Dad for this quote =)

some would think that giving your love to someone again is preposterous after being betrayed. but given ample time, you'd realize that what is more preposterous is shutting down yourself on the "could've, would've, should'ves" in this next phase of your life. because this only means that the people who have hurt you are winning for constantly inflicting pain and fear...

Thanks for sharing this one with me =)

The Last Straw

2006-08-18T15:56:00.000+08:00

2 weeks…it’s so surprising how this short time can change your life completely and drastically.

Everything is going on perfectly…or so I thought. Not until he left and then returned cold as ice. This started a roller coaster of emotions for me, the battle between my mind and my heart, and the endless questioning of what-went-wrong in the relationship.

Space what was he wanted. Space…such pathetic excuse and I fell for it. Gave him the freedom he wanted while being perplexed if our relationship was indeed “stiff”, as he puts it. Was it because we were always together? Was it because I was always there for him? Was it because we depended on each other too much? I thought I was doing those to assure him that the hang-ups in his previous relationship won’t happen to us. That what we have is something I can’t let go…because it is the only thing I’m sure of.

I believed he needed some time off until I found out about the harsh truth. Space with someone who was ALSO committed at the time…I can’t believe it. I had known all the lies, the deceit and the dishonesty that he did by accident. This and much much more stories from people who saw them both made me comprehend that indeed this was all a sham. I was devastated…totally lost and broken.

I started wondering if our relationship was I perceived it to be…strong, intense, passionate, committed…I guess not. He didn’t withstand the 2 weeks that we were apart while I did survive the 1 month I was away from him. So unfair and selfish, to say the least. Especially when there were two people who got hurt in the process. What were they thinking anyway? Or did they really thought about it? I suppose not.

It has been almost a month since that fateful day…sometimes I can’t help but think of the what-ifs and the what-might-have-beens. But then again, I have to cope up with what happened. I have to be strong, to learn to let go and finally move on. I don’t even know where I got the strength I have now. Strength to ultimately accept that what we have is not meant for me… or for us.

I got angry, furious, bitter, resentful and depressed. At one point, I realized I have to love myself more now. I have to be with people who can appreciate me for who I really am and who can understand what I’m going through right now. I'm grateful having such strong faith in Him (He knows whats best!), supportive family (thanks Dad and Mom! =) ), ever-dependable friends (thanks girlfriends! and oh, how can i forget my best guyfriend, thanks for being my wall and for putting some sense into my mind. haha) and to YOU - you know who you are =) thanks for helping me get better each day =)

This phrase keeps on popping into my mind: What goes around comes around…

The Fighter in Me

2006-07-10T12:42:00.000+08:00

Never. I'm not giving up.

Never. I was born a fighter.

For you...

Haphazard ideas

2006-07-04T14:28:00.000+08:00

I can get tired. (physically and emotionally)
I have my own limitations.
I cannot always understand you.
I am almost always moody. (but sometimes due to PMS)
I can be a bitch too. (If I really want to – especially those who deserve my bitching!)
It would take time for me to completely accept all that you have done.
I can be both happy outside but freaking miserable inside. (Often happens nowadays)
I cannot be lenient with your shortcomings forever.
I will not always make the effort to make us work.

Dad's day

2006-06-21T10:06:00.000+08:00

We celebrated Father’s Day by attending Mass and treating Daddy to dinner with Pao and Pat in tow. We heard the 6pm mass at Greenbelt church and then headed off to Kroco Grille for dinner. After that, we let Pat and Pao play in the activity center. Super cute boys! They wouldn’t stop playing not until we tell them we’re going to Timezone. We let them play again and then headed home. Happy Father’s Day Daddy! We love you!

Bon Voyage!

2006-06-19T09:39:00.000+08:00

I went to Ivan’s bday/despedida party last Saturday at his house. The pool wasn’t filled up with water since nobody confirmed they would swim. We started around 5pm, a super early dinner. I promised Ivan I would bring baked tahong since his mom cant cook this one.

It was mostly videoke, (madaya! Home court advantage! Haha) billiards (way to go, cy!) and kwentuhan galore (miss ka na namin jm!) with intel friends (and ex-intel) and some of Ivan’s relatives. Of course, Daddy, Mommy and Rudolf were there.

It was a good night and everyone went home tipsy and happy (except me! Good girl ako!) Have a safe trip bhie ko. I’ll be waiting for my pasalubong! *mwah*

through a man's heart

2006-06-15T14:29:00.000+08:00

Aside from the birthday date with Ivan last Saturday, I brought food for him on his exact birthday, June 14. The way through a man's heart is through his stomach... I bought him big breakfast from Mcdo (hey, I woke up so early to buy this!) and cooked him steak ala pobre with mushroom gravy for lunch (now, I worked hard for this one! Hehe!) I’m looking forward to cooking for you in the future…*wink*

i'm gonna be a supermodel...

2006-06-14T09:20:00.000+08:00

Ivan gave me this super model shirt yesterday. I’m kinda shy to wear it though. *blush* Thanks for the gift bhie. Happy monthsary! More months, years and even decades ahead of us! *mwah*

surprise birthday treat

2006-06-13T08:17:00.000+08:00

Ivan’s birthday is coming up. I’ve been pouring my brains out planning for his special day. Thanks to norman's help, I’m good to go.

1st stop: Sanctuario Spa
It’s actually our first time to “experience” spa. I’ve wanted to try spa ages ago to relieve me from all the stress, pressure and anxiety I’m having due to work but haven’t had the chance to do so. I actually got this idea since Ivan is also willing to try it.
We arrived there a bit early for our appointment. The place is really nice. Not far from the pics in their website. We started our “spa treatment” by taking a shower, heading to the sauna, in which you have 2 options: dry or wet. I couldn’t breathe while inside the wet sauna so I tried dry instead. We stayed there for about 20 mins and by the time we went out, we were already sweating. We rested for a minutes before trying the jacuzzi. I realized I have low resistance, as in super low, to heat or rather hot water in this case. It took me around 10 mins, lots of pangungulit and encouragement from ivan and an attendant’s assistance to finally soak my whole body there. After that, we tried the pool. This time I was the one teasing ivan to race to the other side of the pool! Practice some more bhie. *wink* We were then called to have our massage. It was a good 60-mins (or more???) massage. It was actually good. So relaxing that makes you want to lie down there for the rest of your life. Haha, exagg! Better put this in my to-do list at least every quarter.

2nd stop: Manila Pen Seafood Buffet
Once we finished toweling off the aromatherapy oils from spa, we prepared for dinner. Again, Ivan doesn’t have any idea where we would be having dinner. I chose seafood buffet because we love eating seafoods. We saw a wide variety of seafoods in all recipes you can ever think of! Omg, sira na diet ko! I haven’t been eating that much rice every dinner. Ever since I gained weight some time last year, my metabolism became super slow. To avoid being tababoy, I have to control my rice (or carbs) intake. When we looked in the dessert table, there were lots of cakes, ice cream and waffles. Yikes! Time to set aside my so-called diet! Once a year lang naman birthday ni bhie… *wink*

Happy birthday bhie! Its such a nice, warm and cozy feeling spending everydays with you. I love you. *mwah*

Patpat turns 4!

2006-06-08T09:27:00.000+08:00

*** i opted to put this in a separate post to put cutie pics of patpat and paopao.

patpat was supposed to celebrate his birthday last may 20 but was pushed-out due to my tito's wake. we celebrated it last sunday, june 4, 2006 at Mcdo West Ave. with Power Rangers theme, patpat's new fave, it was attended mostly by relatives, teachers and friends from montessori.

after a few games for both kids and adults (yes, we won the adults game! high five to ivan, dmac and bernadette! 24 y/o, 31" waistline! haha!) it was time to eat. mcflurry!

there was a pabitin for kids afterwards. paopao was brought up by kuya ivan and as expected, he got 4 toys! *wink* his fave was the water toy gun that he used in chasing us. super kulit!

after the party, ate beth suggested we have dinner at Baywalk. since its raining on our way there, we decided to have dinner at Mall of Asia instead. we kept from going to one resto to another to look for a shorter waiting list. we ended up at Maxs. i was so hungry by this time so i couldnt care less. i was also tired taking care of patpat and paopao. but definitely worth it! *big smile*

The week that was

2006-06-05T15:11:00.000+08:00

i'm still tired and sleepy from all that's happened during the weekend. my tito's funeral was a shock. will continue to pray for his soul. haaayy, i have learned that being good to other people has a limit. otherwise, they will be abusive. sooo human nature.

***********

ivan's classes just started this week. my mom is super shocked im home early this past few days. hehe.

no ivan = no malling/dinner/movies during weeknights = home early. *wink*

im back to watching TV every night. *sigh* im missing him already.

************

we went to Mall of Asia to watch X-Men III. looking like a super amazed kid, ivan accompanied me around the mall. yes, its my 1st time! crowds from different walks of life flock to the mall. obviously curious to see the 3rd largest mall in asia. (did i get the right info?)

we ate dinner at congo grille and then watched X-Men III. good movie. no boring scenes. genrally liked it except for the part when Jean Grey killed Prof X. huhu.

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ivan and i went shopping for IMEC exhibit decors. abaca fans, hats, baskets, and sinamay bags --- for a filipiniana look on his exhibit. im kinda excited for him, but also feeling a little bit sad. he'll be leaving in 3 weeks. im going to be a lonely girl...but with lots of pasalubong! right bhie???

The Sacrament of Waiting

2006-05-29T08:41:00.000+08:00

i came across this article while checking emails. this was my favorite in college days... oh well, those were the days. i completely agree about waiting but you have to be sure and certain if he is worth waiting for... or someone much better is also waiting for you. like what happened to me =)

The Sacrament Of Waiting Fr. James Donelan, S.J.

The English poet John Milton wrote that those who serve only also stand and wait. I think I would go further and say that those who wait render the highest form of service. Waiting requires more discipline,more self-control and emotional maturity, more unshakable faith in our cause, more unwavering hope in the future, more sustaining love in our hearts that all the greatest deeds of deering-do go by the name of action. Waiting is a mystery - a natural sacrament of life - there is a meaning hidden in all the times we have to wait. It must be an important mystery because there is so much waiting in our lives. Everyday is filled with those little moments of waiting (testing our patience and our nerves, schooling us in self-control.) We wait for meals to be served, for a letter to arrive, for a friend to call or show up for a date. We wait in line at cinemas and theaters, concerts and circuses. Our airline terminals, railway stations and bus depots are great temples of waiting filled with men and women who wait in joy for the arrival of a loved one - or wait in sadness to say goodbye and give the last wave of hand. We wait for springs to come - or autumn - for the rains to begin and stop. And we wait for ourselves to grow from childhood to maturity. We wait for those inner voices that tell us when we are ready for the next stop. We wait for graduation, for our first job, our first promotion. We wait for success and recognition. We wait to grow up - to reach the stage where we make our own decisions. We cannot remove this waiting from our lives. It is a part of the tapestry of living – the fabric in which the threads are woven to tell the story of our lives. Yet current philosophies would have us forget the need to wait "grab all the gusto you can get." So reads one of America's greatest beer ads get it now! Instant pleasure, instant transcendence. Do not wait for anything. Life is short - eat, drink and be merry because tomorrow you will die. And so they rationalize us into accepting unlicensed and irresponsible freedom- pre-marital sex and extra marital affairs - they warn against attachments and commitments - against expecting anything of anybody, or allowing them to expect anything of us - against dropping any anchors in the currents of our life that will cause us to hold and wait. This may be the correct prescription for pleasure - but even that is fleeting and doubtful -what was it Shakespeare said about the mad pursuit of pleasure - "Past reason hunted, and once had, past reason hated." Not if we wish to be real human beings, spirit as well as flesh, soul as well as heart, we have to learn to wait. For if we never learn to wait, we will never learn to love someone other than ourselves. For most of all waiting means waiting for someone else. It is a mystery, brushing by our face everyday like a stray wind of leaf falling from a tree. Anyone who has loved knows how much waiting goes into it - how much waiting is important for love to grow, to flourish through a lifetime. Why is this? Why can we not have it right now what we so desperately want and need? Why must we wait - two years, three years - and seemingly waste so much time? You might as well ask why a tree should take so long to bear fruit - the seed to flower - carbon to change to diamond. There is no simple answer - no more than there is to life's other demands -having to say goodbye to someone you love because either you or they have made other commitments; or because they have to grow and find the meaning of their own lives - having yourself to leave home and loved ones to find your own path - good-byes, like waiting, are also sacraments of our lives. All we know is that growth - the budding, the flowering of love needs patient waiting. We have to give each other a time to grow. There is no way we can make someone else truly love us or we them, except through time. So we give each other that mysterious gift of waiting - of being present without asking demands and rewards. There is nothing harder to do than this. It truly tests the depth and sincerity of our love. But there is life in the gift we give. So lovers wait for each other - until they can see things the same way or let each other freely see things in quite different ways. There are times when lovers hurt each other and cannot regain the balance of intimacy of the way they were. They have to wait - in silence but still present to each other - until the pain subsides to an ache and then only a memory and the threads of the tapestry can be woven together again in a single love story. What do we lose when we refuse to wait; when we try to find shortcuts through life - when we try to incubate love and rush blindly and foolishly into a commitment we are neither mature nor responsible enough to assume? We lose the hope of truly loving or of being loved. Think of all the great love stories of history and literature - isn't it of their very essence that they are filled with this strange but common mystery – that waiting is part of the substance - the basic fabric against which the story of that true love is written. How can we ever find either life or true love if we are too impatient to wait for it?

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Waiting is a good thing only if something is worth waiting for. How will you know if it's worth it? Gut feel. What if you don't trust your gut? Pray. You will be enlightened. Trust me. Is it wrong to expect while waiting? It's not wrong, but it will increase your chances of heartbreak and disappointment if things don't work out in the end. Is it good to expect while waiting? It is better to HOPE. What's the difference between hoping and expecting? HOPING means you're open to either side of the coin landing though you're more inclined to believe that things will turn out well. EXPECTING means you're thinking single-track...which won't do you much good at all. What's the difference between waiting and expecting? EXPECTING is waiting for something TO DEFINITELY HAPPEN. WAITING is staying where you are, but not necessarily expecting something to happen definitely. Do you need assurance from someone you're waiting for while you're waiting? Ideally, yes. But realistically, do you really want assurance from this person? It's so easy to just point at something and make that the reason why you're waiting ("Because she said..." "Because he told me that..."). With WAITING, all you really can rely on are 3 things: your gut feel, your heart and mind. Just YOURSELF, not anyone else. So should you wait? What does your gut say? How does your heart feel? What does your mind think? If they're saying different things, keep asking yourself these 3 questions (and pray!) until you get a solid answer. THEN you'll know if he or she is worth waiting for.

disappointments

2006-05-24T15:49:00.000+08:00

disappointment- a feeling of dissatisfaction that results when your expectations are not realized.

i'm having a lot of these lately. i hate cancelling plans. i guess i just have to get used to it. *sigh sigh sigh*

no expectations. or rather no HIGH expectations from anyone.

A success

2006-05-17T16:01:00.000+08:00

Summer Youth Camp '06 was a big success! A detailed post in the next few days. gtg!

100% capable!

2006-05-15T06:53:00.000+08:00

finally able to achieve 100% capable on Reflow input KPPs! i'm soo happy!

Which bird are you?

2006-05-11T09:58:00.000+08:00

IVAN

10 June- 7 July
Eagle

A well-respected figure which has excellent visionary qualities. Eagles will truck no nonsense and will fix opponents with a powerful stare. They have the power to rise above the trivial aspects of humanity, and are highly talented.

EMILY

25 Nov - 23 Dec
Raven
Always impressive, raven people are a tower of strength. They are more intelligent than their peers and are adept problem-solvers. They enjoy challenges are stimulated by wild and exposed places.

3 days and counting...

2006-05-10T14:35:00.000+08:00

its only 3 days before summer youth camp, i'm cramming. i still dont know what to xpect and im not sure if i did all that's expected of me. i hope my efforts wont be wasted. worked soo hard for this!

first letter of your name

2006-05-08T09:58:00.000+08:00

i got this one from an email. totoo kaya? read on. ;p

Does your name begin with: E

Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimu lating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and a companion You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while-it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important. But once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. You will fall asleep with a good book. sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book to a lover.

Does your name begin with: I

You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... even worshiped. You enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You like necking spend hours just touching feeling & exploring. You look for lovers who know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless that amateur wants a tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having your desires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new modes of __ expression. You bore easily and thus require adventure and change. Your commitments don't last very long & you often tend to stray. Loyalty is not one of your strong points. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are sometimes downright lustful.

bhie, totoo kaya ung meaning ng name mo? *naughty smile*

long weekend

2006-05-02T07:50:00.000+08:00

for the long weekend, we plan to go to PG with intel friends. despite all the hassles of looking for a decent and affordable place to stay, we managed to get through the plan. ivan and i decided to just spend one night to attend mamang's wake.

we met at batangas port at 8am. yes, we were late. guys who took the bus from buendia arrived an hour earlier than the us, who took the bus from alabang. sorry na nga. *smirk* we took the fast craft expecting that it would take us faster to PG. but alas, the not-so-fast craft stopped by muelle, another town nearby PG to unload some passengers and to refuel the craft which took about 30-45 mins of our time. argghhh. it was getting hot when we arrived there. first thing we did was to look for the restaurant which the owner of the place we would be staying, also owns. buena lynne's crew accompanied us to our place but there was a change since we would now be staying in 2 separate rooms -- one bldg away,instead of staying in 1 unit with 2 rooms inside it. we checked the rooms and then agreed that we can stay in that ONE room! yihee! we were THAT close! good thing about the place was the ref and the kitchen. ms jenny's husband chef don has found his haven! goodness! we wont be suffering from starvation. weehee! *big smile*we ate the mouthwatering adobo cooked by normandy. its ok, it aint that bad. *wink* better than nothing. joke. rested for a while and then prepared ourselves for snorkelling!

we finished snorkelling by past 4pm and then went around for merienda, scramble, fish balls, camote-que and turon! after that, we took turns taking a bath and then rested for a while before having dinner. the boys playing tong-its outside while the girls are trying to catch some sleep. dinner was fried chicken, salted eggs with tomatoes, grilled bangus and lotsa drinks! after fixing the table, we gathered around for our session. 4 bottles of granma and mindoro slings coming our way! i got drunk that night. ivan kept telling me funny stories about me. madaya!

we woke up around 9am, still groggy from all the booze we had last night. rex with his colds, cy and normandy with hang-over, jenny with her headache...too much of something is really bad.

we were supposed to take the 3pm trip going back to batangas port but unfortunately we didnt catch it. so we settled for the 430pm trip. gotta get some rest for tmrw!

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since i spent my whole sunday in mamang's wake, i was able to meet the barzaga and policar clan. *sheesh* i was super scared meeting them for the first time. buti na lng kameron (ivan's cousin and inaanak)made me welcome. she was shy at first but afterwards became close to me. i was taking pictures of her kasi. turns out she soo loves taking pics! there, i got her kiliti!haha. my phone is now filled with cutie pics of her and ivan's relatives she took pictures of. madami din ako pics with her!

meeting mommy bhie was kinda intimadating. she looks mataray but then she warmly smiled at me in-between conversations. daddy bhie has some things to deal with so he arrived in the afternnon with nanay and tatay (daddy bhie's parents). daddy was super friendly and warm. he even instructed ivan for directions on where to drop me off since ivan cant bring me home. some superstition on attending a wake and bringing home someone.

the long weekend was very tiring, but it was worth all the weariness just spending it with ivan and his family.

Time to let go

2006-04-27T11:35:00.000+08:00

i just got home from dinner with ivan when i received a text from him...mamang is gone. setting aside the tampuhan with him a while ago, i was immediately shocked and saddened by the news. mamang just celebrated her 73rd bday last sunday and was rushed to ICU 2 days after. death is truly inevitable.

mamang was the one who took care of ivan since he was born. i recalled ivan's stories about mamang and how she looked after him. being the favorite apo of "nanay" who passed away when i was only 8 yrs old, i can relate to what ivan was experiencing. i vividly remember how painful it was for a child like me to lose nanay. i was used to sleeping beside nanay and wailing like hell if i wake up without her beside me.

mommy was trying to keep the news from me since i have my periodical exams then. but our nosy neighbor told me about it when i was walking from home. i left my bag on the street, ran as fast as i could to our house and asked mommy where nanay is. i was bawled and sobbed as she told me that nanay is gone.

after nanay's death, i went back to our house and learned to sleep with daddy and mommy. growing up, i constantly think of what-ifs if nanay is still here. as time goes by, i learned how to be a strong and brave girl --- one that nanay be proud of.

bhie, i know mamang will always be proud of you. remain strong. i love you. *hugs*

SYC preparations

2006-04-21T10:03:00.000+08:00

i went on EL to rest my right eye as i was pressuming that i will have a sore eyes. i have been waking up with so much "morning star" that i have such a hard time opening my eyes. grabe talaga.

so as not to waste any time, i went looking and buying things needed for the summer youth camp. being in the secretariat committee, i have to prepare kits, IDs, souvenirs and letters. mom, dangie and danforth also went with me --- to shop! went around divi to look for cheap materials for kit. i was looking for a metallic gold bag which was in my shopping list for quite some time now. but, alas, i saw a ivory white bag that caught my eye. also saw a white sandals that can be matched with it! weehee! *wink* im going to wear it tmrw!

went home super disappointed because there was a change in plans. wasnt able to go to repair shop for ivan's watch. *hmmppf* have to schedule another trip to divi for the watch. at least i was able to buy sweet beans for him. sorry bhie. i'll have it done next time.

i was able to use my EL wisely, accomplished a lot of things. 2 weeks to got before SYC! i'm cramming already!

Politics

2006-04-21T09:52:00.000+08:00

politics: defined as the art or science of government or governing, especially the governing of a political entity, such as a nation, and the administration and control of its internal and external affairs. funny how it is also defined as an intrigue or maneuvering within a political unit or group in order to gain control or power. bottomline, politics can be associated with both service and disservice to affected people.

my first encounter with politics was when we were campaigning for leticia ramos-shahani, sister of FVR, who was then running for senator. i was only about 5 years old then so what i only understand from the situation was we have to go from one place to another, give out flyers, sing the sha-sha-sha jingle and then pray that she would win.

in college, i joined an political org ARISE (alliance for responsive involvement and student empowerment) mainly because i believe in what the org believes in. i trust the members and look up to them as role models. be it in studies, outlook in life and yes, even their personal life.

since this is my first job,i havent had any incident involving "office politics". i've had some observations on people that i can consider too close on managers, but still i refuse to believe that it can happen here. not in my department. i trust the focal system, the meritocracy, the "pay for performance".

but i was wrong. dead wrong... i'm frustrated. no, make that furious.

good thing ivan gave me 2 books im dying to read: summer sisters by judy blume and the guardian by nicholas sparks. this should have been 4 books. nahiya lang ako. *wink* super thanks bhie. really made me smile. despite all the sh*t thats going on. *mwah*

bLoGtHiNgs

2006-04-18T14:11:00.000+08:00

Your Nail Polish Color is Pink

How you're unique: You're girly without being high maintenance

Why your style rocks: You're the perfect blend of stylish, preppy, and cute

What this color says about you: "I am secure enough not to follow every trend"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

You Are a Rose

You are a total alpha female who tends to be a leader.
Your friends depend on you to hold things together and make decisions.
Men are drawn to your feminine powers and strength.
While you are the center of attention, you are secretly introverted and a bit shy.

What Flower Are You?

No Pocket Jeans

You are confident and completely comfortable with your body.
You don't mind showing off - in fact, you put it all out there!

What Style of Jeans Are You?

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds.
You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life.
Also nostelgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

Holy Week 2006

2006-04-14T18:55:00.000+08:00

monday - went to work. lunch out with office mates and then went to BPI to pay taxes due to the stocks i vested through SOP. haha. *smirk* grabe, even EMAs and IDFs are to have 12% tax. haay. its supposed to be a reward given to employees. oh well. also went to church to meet wyd pips and talk to fr.aldo. meeting time was 7pm but people started coming at around 8pm. so irritating. can they not at least be punctual? old habits really die hard. 'nuff said.

tuesday - still working. m excited to have my VL tmrw. cant wait! time to sleep all day! lunch out again. havent used much of my meal tickets. harhar. watched ice age2 at atc while happily munching holy kettle corn. i sooo love holy kettle corn!

wednesday - mom waked me up so early. i was planning to sleep till 10am,but no, my mom has other plans which made me really irritated. went to manila to join our annual tradition of pabasa. belted out with anna. haha. went to sleep the whole afternoon. yey!

thursday - ivan went with my family to divine mercy shrine for the stations of the cross. part of the family! he was even asked by mom to lead 2 stations. yihee. went home a little past 12 noon. ate lunch and then went around lp for the fund-raising thing. grabe, scorching hot! took a nap and then headed out to parish for the booth. whew! sooo much work to do!

friday - since we went home really late last night, i slept the whole morning. aga movies took most out of my time. mom and dad did not bother to wake us up for the procession. i just checked outlook. IDF payment already in my account! yahoo! shopping again!

saturday - busy with house stuff. slept the whole afternoon so i'd be up for the easter vigil and salubong at 10pm. went out for dinner with ivan at pancake house to celebrate apr13. had stomachache while in the church. hurrmph. salubong finished at at around 130am. ivan had to go home already so he didnt come with us to have super early breakfast.

sunday - woke up early to catch 7am mass for the flyers and booth. went home after 9am mass to doze off till 4pm. went to mass at 630pm then headed straight home to sleep early. may pasok na naman tmrw!

thoughts...

2006-04-09T13:00:00.001+08:00

why do you have to make everything a big deal? cant you not trust me? i wont ever hurt you. i promise. just believe in me and trust me. i love you so much and i'll do anything for you to feel that.

THE exam

2006-04-09T13:00:00.000+08:00

after a one-and-a-half week of long study nights at starbucks gulping down coffee to keep me and ivan awake, we finally took the master's admission exam last saturday. meet at mcdo with russ, chander and cy for a quick breakfast. we saw a few intel scholars who will also take the exam for eithe MS or PhD.

and then it started, the 1st exam was divided into 4 sections: math, engg sciences, computer fundamentals and statistics which we will take for 2.5 hrs. arrghhh! i had a hard time in math, specifically, on laplace transforms --- totally forgot about this one, on complicated differential and integral calculus --- cant seem to figure out the complex eqns. engg sciences was quite easy, mainly because it has many topics which an ME graduate can relate to. haha, bumawi! *wink* computer and stat was also ok. thanks to my mom, danforth and dangie for the basic concepts i learned. the 2nd exam was all about english and comprehension whick is only for 25mins. it was, uhm, fine actually, except for a few confusing paragraphs. i thought this would be our last exam but then we have to write an essay for 1.5hrs on any of the topics listed there. *hurmph* kainis talaga. so i forced myself to write an essay which is quite hard since i believe that you have to have an inspiration first before you can write a really good one. haay.

we then went to RP to eat lunch at chef d angelo. dinaan na lng namin sa kain. ivan and i was planning to watch a movie. but then, we cant seem to just forget about the exam. sooo depressing! we just walked aimlessly in RP. debating on whether to shop for stuffs needed for our upcoming PG trip or to watch a movie. in the end, we just ate dessert --- to make us feel a lil better and then went home early to just sleep on it. *wink*

bahala na. we did our part. its dlsu's loss, not ours. *smirk*

Coping with pressure

2006-04-06T13:36:00.000+08:00

"All the water in the world could never sink a ship unless it gets inside. All the pressures of the world cant tear you apart and can never hurt you.....unless you let it in."

thanks nix. needing all the motivation i could get. ;p

SCAPE girls...the way we were

2006-04-04T10:37:00.000+08:00

After 3 long years, SCAPE (Susan-Celes-Almay-Pia-Emily) girls finally went out last sunday. Pia is working in Singapore, so there were only 4 of us. we had breakfast at Pancake House. roared with laughter at susan's comment on us being manangs because we are meeting at 9am for breakfast and not the-usual-dinner-and-party-gimik. *big smile* so we decided to stroll at ATC, looking for place to continue our endless kwentos and to take more pics. addict sa camera! it has been so long since we had a picture of us together. high school pa ata. had coffee at starbucks with orangey lola on the side. *wink* stories wont stop flowing, hel-lo! its 3 years of unupdated lives! some of the changes/un-changes (from high school to working girls that we are now) that i have observed:

we are now allowed to have boyfriends! i remember back in hs when we used to fuss about celes' monthsary gift to GAM. she was the only one who has bf at that time. we would go to park square, yes, that was the "in" mall that time and look for video games/stuffs that GAM was longing for. the BIG maroon adidas bag, for their anniv, that celes requested me to bring home so that mama wont see it and i, unfortunately, forgot to bring it on their special day. pasaway talaga! now, we talk about our relps as openly as possible. not worrying about asking permission to go on dates. kaya lng si susan puro boylets pa rin! *big smile*
we spend our own money now! oh, yes. we can buy whatever we want and as much as we want to. im feeling sorry for my savings account. haha. but we're still the same "kuripot" person that we are. kasama ba c alma dito? joke. we still put such value to money especially now that we are working hard to earn it. buti na lng may increase na this april. right celes? *wink*
we can wear anything we want! being the grown-up girls that we are, we can now wear anything. from tube tops, mini-skirts, low neckline blouses to glam make-up. and we can wear our nails long now. i remember ms.bondoc,my 1st yr adviser,who checks our nails every morning and sees to it that she doesnt see any white linings on our nails! as in pudpod dapat. -ouch- now, we can have french tips on!
we can go wherever we want! now that we know how to drive, celes not having any mang molong on tow, susan with a new car from daddy, almay with her own car(wish i could drive manual!), we can now go for a day trip or out-of-town vacation. looking forward to may 6, girls!
we are now liable for our own lives! we plan our future as early as now. be it our masters degree, marriage (si almay yata ang mauuna or si susan?? haha), babies, own house and cars, parents and in-laws, even siblings.

this and much much more shared experiences make me realize that what SCAPE girls have is one of a kind. being apart for 3 years and meeting one sunday, still doesnt make any difference in our friendship. looking forward to being friends with you till our lola days! *mwah*

School Tour

2006-04-03T10:01:00.000+08:00

UP Diliman - EL from work last Thursday. Ivan and I went to UP to get my transcript. it has been exactly 3 weeks since Ariel requested this from the OUR! thanks Ariel ;p! bon voyage! been sooo makulit following it up kaya cgro i got it in time. went first to engg bldg. saw a few younger orgmates and got a few things from the tambayan including my yearbook. kwentuhan with karen about ME187 powerplant design (manegdeg-ish style pa rin!) and then saw charity, this sweet little girl who calls me pretty girl even if we are at both ends of the hallway. *blush* we also worked together during regcom days. she was still calling me pretty girl and was telling karen and ivan that if she was a guy, she would choose to court me. baliw talaga! since it was already lunch time when we got there, went to eat lunch first at World Chicken Katipunan. ivan told me that from UP to Ateneo, there is such a big scenery change. bad bad. couldnt agree with him more. from the cars, iPods to the students' porma, you really wouldnt have a hard time figuring out which is from UP or from Ateneo. went to ME dept to get the receipt from ariel. buti na lng they we were having a faculty meeting kaya sir ji cant "pester" me with his funny antics.*smirk* also saw the manongs in ME lab (the ones who used to do dirty stuff for me during ME shop ;p),told me i gained a few pounds. yehey! went straight to OUR. one funny thing though, the pic in my TOR wasnt me! O-M-G! the girl there looked old na. as in OLD! more mature than my mom noh. freaked out at the sight of it and told the admin that this pic isnt me, but the info there is all correct except for the pic. they hurriedly printed 3 copies of the 1st page since i was getting 3 copies of it. went to the university registrar's office to let him sign it. was about to go home already when ivan remembered i can get my diploma. went again to engg bldg. all the admins were still there. ate imee, ate darin, ate aloha and ate lita. still the same old faces i used to work with during enlistment period. they were super teasing me about ivan. ate imee even telling me where i got ivan and where can they find someone who looks like him. haha. ndi kasi sanay na may kasama akong gwapo! *super big smile* pero naman, do i have to say it? im too pretty nga for him noh. go ahead, ask cha. *wink* d ba nga, beauty is in the eye of the beholder... i'm glad im beatiful in ivan's eyes... am i bhie? *pacute smile*

La Salle Taft - went to La Salle last saturday morning to pass our MS admission requirements. also got the testing permit for next saturday and the coverage for the exam! grabe, sobrang dami. as in. algeb, chem, EE, stats, differential and integral calculus, english, and even computer terminologies. haay kainis. ivan toured us around la salle and i was incessantly teasing him that he was "reminiscing". he was only giving me his usual, ano ka ba??? expression. geeky as we are, we went home early for some review sessions. my head is spinning now...sobrang dami subjects i need to absorb in a week! good luck!

Stress relievers

2006-03-29T10:51:00.000+08:00

the past week have been really stressing for me. read: RIM visit/audit, PCS control charts, WebFMEA updates, engg builds allocation, project due dates... argghh! i could go on and on, but i choose not to ruin my current mood. so to unwind after a stressful week, my officemates and i decided to have dinner (and some drinks!).

since i was meeting up with my college housemates a.k.a. Ratkee's GROs, for our overdue dinner, ivan and i decided we split up. he'll have dinner with intel friends and i go with nix and almay. by overdue, i meant bringing christmas gifts and pasalubong from my WYD trip last august. super overdue na nga.

we ate at north park glorietta. as usual, super kwentuhan and updates on each other's lives including other people's lives as well. haha! girls will always be girls. kaya pla ayaw sumama ni ivan. masyado dw kme maingay magkwentuhan! weeee! kainis nga lng we forgot to take pics. super daldal kasi.

after dinner,i met with ivan and our intel friends to have coffee. we went to SBC GB to make the boys sober. they drank a lil too much kasi. tsktsk. i couldnt help but laugh at normandy's jokes. baliw talaga! to think na he only drank 1 bottle, the effect on him is sooo....i cant find the right word. hehe. we were supposed to go somewhere else after cofffe,but ivan and i decided to go home na.

had some RnR with ivan the whole saturday! sobrang enjoy! *wink*

FoCaL realizations

2006-03-24T15:12:00.000+08:00

just had 1:1 with my manager for the appraisal download. ho-hum-ho-hum... im thinking, things coud be better,could they? dont get me wrong, i trust my manager so much. so i guess i got what i really desreve. haha. after my month-long vacay in italy and germany! who cares? learned a lot from WYD experience (besides being closer to Him =) ) which is not worth any focal or appraisal at all. ;p

better keep on going... don't want to be left behind...the competitve me strikes again!

newbie

2006-03-23T14:21:00.000+08:00

i hope i can keep this blog. have started a blog but i get frustrated every time i cant update it. wish me luck!